And this is my beautiful life
The only thing certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life

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Friday, April 17, 2009

Skidding and Getting Back on Track

Assalammualaikum wr wb...

Its funny how things work out and how things don't. Its funny how people tell you to follow your heart yet the reality is very different from what your heart feels. Life is full of interesting issues. But once in our life we reach a junction where everything is gone and you stand there and start wondering what's going on. Its terrible when the road hits a bump throws you off course and disorientates you completely. Standing at this junction you don't know what to feel, don't know what to do and don't know where life is going to take you.

Standing there now I can see why people resort to certain outlets, like smoking, drinking or something else. I stand at this junction now lost and confused, how something so nice could just disappear like this. I'm sure in due time I would understand, in time I would understand the reason behind all these happenings. But at this moment, I don't, at this moment all I have are questions, emotions that I don't understand and know. I start to ask myself why. Not knowing the answer to that frustrates me more.

Its time I let go of myself, reflect and discover what I am feeling and how I'm going to recover from it. I need to understand the nature of the issues at hand and get a clear grasp of my life. I need to stop my life from spinning and get back to the task at hand.

The most important thing for me is to learn to let go and put my life in the hands of the Almighty. I need to trust in His will. I need to realise that everything that happens is all part and parcel of the bigger picture. Well I hope so anyway.

My sisters and dear friends have been really patient with me lately. Thanks All.

Surprisingly, I'm all well and back to my smiley and lunatic irritable ways. Hehehe ;oP

Planning for a chalet in August. Hopefully can celebrate my Birthday and hopefully too my godson's, Zufar. Must get the parents to agree to come. Would like to organise a reunion for all GYSS peeps. Hmmmm. Gonna be tough. Would need recruits. But still got a long way to go.

Planning for a short getaway with my colleagues. Bangkok doesn't seem safe at the moment. *PULLS HAIR* Where ? Oh Where can we go ?

Its official people. I'm taking over a bigger team and 2nd largest agency / account that my department has. Tough job. More responsibilities. Hands are full. What a challenge. Bring it all on ! !

Yeah ! I'm all back on track after 3 weeks of hell ! ! Yeah baby, the lioness is back fiery then ever.

Alhamdulillah !

Wassalammualaikum wr wb..