And this is my beautiful life
The only thing certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life

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Friday, August 13, 2010

My HATCH DAY ! !

Assalammualaikum wr wb..



Yesterday was the second day of Ramadhan (Fasting Month for the Muslims). It was my Hatch Day too =o)

I had a great time baking. Spend some time with my sister. Tho she was busy watching online Taiwanese drama while I was baking. No harm. I watched the drama earlier and recommended it to her.. hehehe..

Honestly, I have nothing much to write except for the fact that I've been pretty busy with work and school.

Work have been great lately tho I have loads of process improvements projects (like 11) But I have wonderful colleagues. Especially my adopted "sons" (Dinesh, Miguel aka Ah Boy, Yusoff). They have been great help and not to mention the ladees too (Kayathri, Mei Yi, Kak Namaa, Kak Norwati & Kak Rosidah)

For my Hatch Day, the team & Amanda, Wenna, Yuana, Paul, Shidah, Michelle and Cherie bought me a bouquet of what seems like white roses. I LIKE ! ! Thank you ALL ! !

I meet my lads after class too yesterday.. Had a great time and heart to heart talk with them all =o) Thanks for the cheer up, lads. Its easy to find a soul-mate in a friend but a friend in a soul-mate is very seldom. And I'm tired of the dating game. Seriously had enough.

I'm planning for a long trip next year. Hopefully it comes true. I do need to look for someone to accompany me for the trip but not sure who would be interested or available for the trip...

Anyways, something unexpected surfaced. I've written about D several times. This post too will include him. I didn't expect him to want to meet me and he told me he would like to pass me my birthday present. He shouldn't have. Really.

The reason why I rushed into deciding to study was because I wanna distract myself. Keep myself busy. Can't imagine I did all this without planning my finances.

Anyways, I know I'm being mean but I didn't wanna spoil my birthday and I was afraid of meeting him. I don't understand why is he acting this way. Wasn't my email clear enough (refer to my previous post). FINE. I still do have feelings for D but as mentioned time and again it is simply impossible. I don't want to go thru the downward spiral emotional nonsense again. Especially now that my school might be affected by such issues.

I know I'm being selfish. A friend of mine said he might be disappointed that I refuse to meet him yesterday. But please understand from my point that I am afraid of getting hurt. I can't imagine that I am still unable to get him out of my system. I want to move on without any emotional baggage. Surprisingly, D is so much different from T and A. Its not fair to compare but its the truth. Even to date I can't explain it myself.

Anyways, he really really shouldn't have gotten me any birthday present. Now, I'm feeling very uneasy.

But whatever it is I think my assignments and my health is my utmost importance. My feelings too. Thank goodness I got family, friends and colleagues who gives me constant encouragements ! ! Love them loads.. Thanks everyone... You know who you are..

All in all, I had a great birthday yesterday. My celebration still continue for the next couple of days with more friends and my family ! !

God Bless Everyone !

Wassalammualaikum wr wb..